Life, Reflections, Moving forward

Oh lord, it definitely has been a while, apologies my lovelies! But I’m back and I’m sure as hell ready to ramble on about nothing, so you're in luck munchkins! In all seriousness, I’ve had a great time away (not saying I didn’t miss you guys because I did) it's really given me time to think about my future and what I want to do. So let’s have a DMC! I really should tell you what that is because we’re going to have a lot of these in the future! Deep, meaningful, conversation. Good luck reading this guys…

I've always been that person who just drifts through life (in the words of my science teacher, hi Mr. North if you’re reading this) and I thought maybe its time to stop drifting and land in a place called reality. If you asked me two months ago what I wanted to do with my life, who I waned to become and what my goals where I would have probably just rambled and made something up to be honest. I always change my mind and I’m also one of the most unpredictable people you'd meet. It frustrates me and god knows what it does to the people around me! I thought enough is enough. I asked myself things like what you enjoy, where do you see yourself in 10 years time etc. If there’s one thing I learnt sometimes its best not to search for answers, but to just let them find you in the midst of all the chaos, the biggest chaos that you'd come across - life.

People come and go, we move on and its done. Sounds simple, but somehow moving on isn’t as easy as it is spelt. I think I’ve found the answer (for me anyway). I've always hated goodbyes but sometimes goodbyes are for the best. Even though we don't want it to happen it does, because sometimes people come in to our lives just to open our eyes, teach us something new and to help us move forward. As soon as we learn our lesson, push ourselves forward and make ourselves better, the past drifts away. It sounds cheesy but seriously we shouldn’t cry because its over but smile because it happened. Smile because we learnt from it. Smile because it was great while it lasted. In all honesty, as long as you allow yourself to let go the rest will fall in place naturally. Your probably thinking what do I know? I’m a 14 year old girl with my whole life ahead of me, but that is exactly it! We all have our whole lives ahead of us, we all have a chance every day, every second, to be brand new.

As I said I did have a think about my future and the answer was staring me right in the face. What do I love doing? Talking! Which girl doesn’t right? But I seriously love doing this, writing, talking and I feel like I learn so much from it too. Sometimes I learn a lot from myself just blabbering on! Anyways, I have thought about journalism and I tried not to dream big but the world is really my oyster/lobster (thank you tracy beaker for confusing me)! So if you ask me where I see myself in 10 years time, I have a new, more certain response. New York,

Hasina xxxx